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Post by [ j a y ] - [ s a f f ] on Jun 13, 2006 15:19:56 GMT -5
Jay turned the Key and pulled it out, istening to the car engine cutting out with a splutter. Why he had bought the car he had no idea - it was pathetic. Oh well. He got out without a look at Makla and opened the back door, reaching in for Sephy. With her in his arms, curled up, he shut the door again with his foot and walked around the house to the back door of the little cottage. He never locked it - there was no point. With all the land he onwed, hardly anyone knew the house was there, right in the middle of it. And for some reason, since Makla had gone - it just seemed stupid to use the front door. The barn was at the back, and that was basically the only way he went. So the front door had remained sht for practically the last 6 months. Jay knew somewhere that it was a weird thing to think about, but it's strange what you do when someone you love just disappears.
He kicked off his shoes and padded through to the living room, setting Sephy down in the playpen. She was asleep again. |
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Post by makla. on Jun 13, 2006 15:29:41 GMT -5
the ride seemed to take forever in makla's mind, her hands rested on her lap and she kept watching the area pass by. turning around once; makla looked at her daughter sleeping, and a tear fell on her shirt and she turned back around- not once to Jay. So she was scaried what would happen after the car stopped and when it did. Makla jumped alittle, not noticable but When Jay just walked to the back with Sephy an eyebrow was rising in confusion. Helping herself, fragile hands pushed the door open and she stepped out and slammed the door shut. Follow- Well I guess so, Makla took her figure towards the back, and the door she opened herself once again.
A pausing movement, and She stared into the house- A deep breathe and she entered, her slip-on's slid off, and She followed her own belief to where jay was and when she came into the living room- Sephy was asleep and there was Jay. Silence from her, and Her hands pushed inside ehr pockets and She looked at the ground, biting her cheek
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Post by [ j a y ] - [ s a f f ] on Jun 16, 2006 15:35:02 GMT -5
He just turned as she came in - lookign at her with dead eyes. It wasn't that he was mad, although he had a right to be. But first he wanted to know why she had gone, left, took off. Whatever you wanted to call it.
He was hurting deep down, that she could do that. THat she didn't cae enough to at least tell him. Maybe h was being unfair, but the months of loosinghope, a little bit each day, had clouded his vision. The spark was still there, somewhere. but it had been a long time since anyone had seen it |
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Post by makla. on Jun 17, 2006 10:16:04 GMT -5
makla's glance at jay turned away, or atleast her eyes did. the look in his freaked her out, creeped her- and she wouldn't stand staring much longer. why wasn't he talking? he should be screaming at her. makla abused love, and jay was suffering from it.
are you even going to talk?
her small voice was heard, and she glanced up at jay again. a habit so very much hated, biting your lip. she kept figiting around and biting her lip in nervousness and patience.
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Post by [ j a y ] - [ s a f f ] on Jun 18, 2006 14:27:49 GMT -5
He just shook his head and let himself sit down heavily on the floor next to Sephy's pen, reaching out to hold his daughter's hand.
What do you want me to say Makla? Welcome home? or 'Where the hell have you been for the past 6 months'?
He pushed his dreads back, like he always used to. No matter how much they irritated him, everyone knew there was no chance of him cutting them. Stupid? Yeah, but that was Jay |
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Post by makla. on Jun 18, 2006 21:01:29 GMT -5
would playing something like falling to the ground? or crying help at all. makla watched his every move, and holding sephy's hand shattered away memories. inside makla was dieing. his words hit her, and she wanted to just fall and say sorry, and beg- because as of right now, he doesn't really seem to care but that she is back. makla needs him, and jay needs her.
just something jay
makla shook her head, and sighed. her hands touched her forehead, and seemed to be checking her own temperature. no longer standing still, makla just looked at Jay and walked towards the front door, but she was just going upstairs. Her figure held the stair railing, and she looked back to that room- a shake of her head and she whispered.
just something
and then the sound of footsteps was heard, step by step- the stairs were accomplished. makla took a few more steps, til her figure just pushed her door open to her room- It took strength actually She pushed the door and the instant she entered, Her nose released a sneeze. Nasty dust, and She stepped into her room. Nothing was changed, it was still messy, and She let herself slide down against the empty wall and sit. Her breathing was heavy, and usual for the anorexic attack girl.
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Post by [ j a y ] - [ s a f f ] on Jun 22, 2006 15:10:57 GMT -5
Jay sat silently, his eyes on the floor, dreads irritating his eyes slightly. But he couldn't be bothered to push them away. Finally it was Sephy, who started wimpering - that brought him out of his reverie, and he turned to her, stroking her cheek, singing aoftly
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
As Sephy calmed and fell asleep, curled up wth her head on one of her soft toys, Jay gently released her grasp on his finger and stood, his joints cracking softly. He padded to the kitchen, not bothering to look up the stairs. Soon enough he was outside, shuttigng the door behind him and jogging down the path to the barn. He made his way to Fusuon's stall and slipped inside, stroking the horse's muzzle as the stallion bent his head down to snuffle at Jay. |
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Post by makla. on Jun 23, 2006 13:37:39 GMT -5
with her back against the wall and legs bent up- makla laced her arms around her knees and her face was buried in the empty space. it was to quiet in the house and makla could hear everything. she didn't cry, there was nothing left of her til Jay came back into her life. He was doing nothing wrong, its all her fault and then the door shut. Her left leg slid out and she pressed her face against her arm. the pressure began and as that door shut against the frame, She pushed herself up off the floor.
makla's ipod was sitting a foot away from her and she grabbed it as her figure walked around the room and then she opened her room's door and stepped outside. now tears were falling, and she put the headphones in her ears and walked towards Jay's room. She pressed play, and a song came on randomly
everything by lifehouse.
Find me here, and speak to me
I want to feel You, I need to hear You
You are the light that's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the light to my soul, You are my purpose
You're everything
stopping, er hand just pushed his door open and she didn't hesitate much and she moved across his room and just set her figure down on his bed and she curled up on the bed as if she would be sleeping but she wasn't, she was crying. she made a mistake, she destroyed their relationship because of one fight that hurt her more then anything- sephy.
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Post by [ j a y ] - [ s a f f ] on Jun 27, 2006 5:43:20 GMT -5
He had just changed - so much, over such a short time. Although it hadn't seemed like a short time when he haad been living through it. 6 months of not knowing where Makla was, not knowing when she was coming home. Not knowing if he even wanted her home, or what he'd say when she did come home.
He sat down in the straw, his back against the wall and put his headback, the electric lights shining in his eyes until he could feel them watering and closed them. Then he could only hear; the horses in their stalls, snorting and shifting. And the smells that were familiar to him. |
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Post by makla. on Jun 28, 2006 11:18:12 GMT -5
no sleeping was allowed, makla layed on his bed, and listened to that song over and over, and finally after 30 minutes of listening to it, she pushed the ipod off the bed, and it fell to the ground. makla didn't care if it broke, she cared more for jay, and she made the biggest mistake in her life. what she wanted to do was go down to the barn, slap him and see if anything happened but Makla feeling weak- She hadn't consumed much lately but just Water, She figured something needed to clear her up. The figure slipped out of the bed, and the ipod layed playing over and over on the ground. Her steps were small, and She opened Jay's door and slipped out, and made her way down the stairs.
alone again
but makla wasn't, Because Jay didn't take Sephy with him, and she didn't know that. Feeling Nausea, and Light headed, She grabbed the railing and stepped down each step carefully til She stepped through the living room and Whoa! She stopped right in her tracks and looked at her daughter sleeping peacefully, Her steps quietly were sounding, and She crept into the Kitchen.
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